Knee Pain

I’ve always had this feeling that whenever somebody complains about something hurting, they’re perceived as whiners and just need to get over it. So I generally don’t complain too much about pain or make a big deal of it. Instead, I try to push through the pain without making a lot of noise about it.

I’ve mentioned my knee pain before, then I just let it go. It started late September, and I thought it was finally starting to do better. That was until I walked around the zoo yesterday and regretted it later that night and still today. The same spot on my left knee, low and to the inside, KILLS! It’s worse going downhill or down stairs than up.

I will eventually go to the doctor. I’ve been once before. I’m pretty sure it’s chondromalacia patella. They sent me to physical therapy, where they discovered there were many things I couldn’t do because it caused more pain. It was a waste of time and money.

To really see what’s going on, they may want more than an x-ray (affordable with insurance) like an MRI (not-so-affordable even with insurance). If they find that it’s not something easily fixed with R.I.C.E. and physical therapy and can only really be relieved with surgery, that’s also not-so-affordable even with insurance! We just finally got out from under monthly payments on medical bills. I don’t want to have to make them again. I would feel guilty putting yet another expensive burden on our already tight budget.

That’s not the worst of it, either. The pain is one thing, but the frustration over the resulting limitations is another. This affects my photography as it limits my motion. I like to get down low for angles not normally seen. That’s now extremely difficult. I like to get out and go places that require a lot of walking. Yesterday proved that to be painfully regrettable. I can easily see how people who suffer debilitating injuries can become depressed. :(

So, yes, this knee pain I have is having a pretty big negative affect on me. I try not to complain about it, but I’ve been stuffing it down for so long that I had to let it out here. IT HURTS! It’s not an excuse to get out of things, which should be apparent by the fact that I try to do things in spite of it. It’s not a ploy to get pity attention because I loathe that type of attention. I’m just tired of trying to pretend that it doesn’t exist.

Now that I got that out of my system for the moment, maybe I can get back to my regularly scheduled programming … work, work, and more work. :P

Pain Easing

The nauseating pain has subsided, but there is still some residual neck and shoulder pain lingering along with some dizziness.  Ibuprofen and BioFreeze have been my very close friends lately.  Today is also my last day on the prednisone, so hopefully if these have been side effects, they will be gone when I wake up tomorrow!

Nauseating Pain

Have you ever felt pain so bad that you felt like you might throw up?  When will this all work it’s way out of my system?

It was exactly a week ago Saturday that I woke up hurting all over.  The next day, either side of the base of my skull felt bruised to the touch.  Slowly, all week, that has been working it’s way down my neck, and is now settled across my shoulders and shooting pain down my right arm.  It aches deep inside.  This is so frustrating!  Tonight, I have another headache.  I wonder if this is the kind of pain people with fibromyalgia deal with all the time.  It’s downright depressing because I want to do everything I would normally do, but I can’t.  I’m taking 600 mg of ibuprofen at a time just so I can function.

My hair dryer fried this morning.   In the middle of drying my hair, it shorted out and died.

I did manage to get out today and get Miranda new shoes for school.  One can only live in flip-flops for so long, and those summer days are rapidly approaching their end here in Colorado.  Of course, I couldn’t resist the cutest pair of flats for myself – a steal at $2.99 at Payless!  I am so glad leggings and longer, flowy tops are coming back.  Finally, I can be comfortable again.

Greg has to work nights this week and will be crashing in Jason’s room in the basement during the day.  I’m facing some overtime this week.  Some glitch happened that prevented a few hundred email from uploading the week before last, and we have some catching up to do.  Being on vacation last week was actually a blessing.  I wouldn’t have been able to work overtime anyway.  It sucks that I had to spend my vacation recuperating from that allergic reaction, but at least I was able to rest.

My weekends for the next few weeks are busy as usual.  Next weekend I have a photo shoot for one of the SCTC groups.  That will be on location in an urban setting.  The following weekend I want to take the girls somewhere to take their portraits to match the boys’.  The next weekend is my scheduled Saturday to work.  The weekend after that I’m singing with a new worship team!

Yep!  I decided it was time to get back into the music ministry.  I won’t be singing with my old team, though.  To do that, I would need to also sing on another team.  I can’t do two teams.  It’s just too much.  In October and November, my team is scheduled to sing the same weekends I’m scheduled to work.  When I work on a Saturday, I only work until 2:00, and rehearsal starts at 3:00.  I actually prefer to sing the same weekend I work.

School starts tomorrow!  I should get to bed so I can get up early enough to make sure all THREE high schoolers are up on time!  Miranda doesn’t have to wake up until an hour after them.